Skipped math lec so I'm here in B11 and for once.... without jason. *cheers!*

I'm still trying very hard to comprehend the fact that js sent a msg to kelvin telling him that i had a blimey crush on both kelvin and russell. Like sure... i developed a crush on BOTH of them after seeing them for one pathetic time. That's totally it man.. I'll never be able to lift my head up high ever again. *cries*

I hate js like to the core? argh.

Cher just showed me something on her hp that said fishcakes. And she asked me to figure it out. But i can't! what in the world is fishcakes supposed to mean? the only connection i can make is fish=luohan=alex. but SO?

I have to return my jill mansell book to the library today and i'm only halfway through. sigh.. I wish i could like set aside an entire day reading that book only but it's impossible. And i'm such an irresponsible shit. I cancelled tuition like 3 hours before he was due at my house all coz i didn't have time to do enough qns so as to ask him stuff i didn't know.

Anyway sis? i haven't heard from you in quite awhile so do drop me a mail or leave a comment sometime yah? not like i'll probably reply fast, but oh well the com has been sent for repair already. Whilst trying to disconnect the wires from the cpu i nearly twisted a screw off with my bare fingers. ouch.

There was cause for celebration last night at my house. *grins* we're going for a sumptious dinner tonight i think. :)

class coming in so i better scram.

come to think of it... did jason come today?

jason sucks. or have i mentioned that already? argh.

lesson number one? NEVER surf the net with jason around. gosh.. i spend more time wrestling with him rather than updating my blog. and when i finally get a chance to? he types in some erm... very sick in the mind stuff. jason sucks.

Anyway, my new lover is *cringes* wu jiang. the one who has breasts. Sheesh!!! So cher gladly wants to accept him as her lover but no.. i cannot give him away. how tragic.

three or four more weeks to the prelims. My heartbeat has also increased to three or four times the normal beat. *rips hair* I've never felt so unprepared in my entire life. help.

I'm trying to erase that sick entry but due to the new format once it's published it can never be amended again. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! i see jason coming into the library. I shall run then.

Jason sucks to the HIGHEST degree.

and sheesh. my com crashed.

Jason says: HellooOO!OO!O!OO!O!OO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! angie wants a nagle book.. yeah..

Jason sucks to the HIGHEST degree.

and sheesh. my com crashed.

Jason says: HellooOO!OO!O!OO!O!OO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! angie wants a nagle book.. yeah.. and a big penis


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Jason sucks to the HIGHEST degree.

and sheesh. my com crashed.

Jason says: HellooOO!OO!O!OO!O!OO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! angie wants a nagle book.. yeah.. and a big penis


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"shifting cultivators are an ignorant lot" that was the question given to michelle and me like more than a month ago, but we're getting down to it only now. And it's so hard to find any info here, pissing man.

Anyway now that the block test results have all been given back, i guess it's time to put bt2 behind us and work towards the prelims. Don't know why, but i find it so hard just to get back on track again. I seem to be living each day as it is and not planning at all which is so bad, because i'm lagging again as usual. And i realised that i didn't hit my target for geog which turned out to be such a dissapointment. damn. Besides, there's been news of a math moderation going on and that sucks even more, coz there goes my first and last A. damn. damn. damn. damn.

JS's party was alright, nice food provided. We reached there, ate, sang a nice birthday song for him then played some idiotic game which was er.. *rolls eyes* But well after that his volunteer group friends spruced up the evening a little with their quite funny antics, so overall, it was ok. His volunter group friends are quite different from him actually, they're very sociable indeed.

Sigh, tuition again tonight. I have to get my chapter 34 right this time. :)

I wonder how my mum and aunt are doing in perth. The last time they called they seemed to be having all the fun in the world. wheee..... I'm looking forward to them coming back! with all the er.. prezzies of course! haha.. I'm evil. I'm actually chatting with michael now, and he says they've gone down south. how nice.

Oh yes and sis, what happened to the sign my guestbook thing on your blog? i can't even leave any comment now. haha.. anyway thanks for all the encouragement throughout the preperation for bt2. it did help, and i made an improvement. except for geog that is. My overall grade was A,C,E. but math may be moderated down so i think i'll end up with a B. Well, everyone in my class did well too so hopefully we'll maintain it! (i really hope)

tanya... i got your mail and replied to it already, but i don't think you got it. Can you still access this blog? leave a comment sometime yah? I think you're back in melbourne now right? And yes glad to know you're confirmed coming back in december!!!!!!!! *hugs* can't wait to see you again! hey why don't u ask him to come along too? It'll be much more fun then and you'll get to see him again.

I'm still looking for bloody shifting cultivator info. Why in the world are they ignorant and who cares if they are or not!?
whatever.

Stuffed to the brim with food from all over the place. *slumped on the chair*

That's the problem with making trips to kl. it's bad for health.

Anyway, my grandfather is miraculously on the road to recovery!!!!!! *hooray!!* well judging from the time when the doctor said yah he has about a week left to the progress he's making now, i'm really proud of him. They're going to reduce his dependency on the support thing this afternoon, so hopefully he'll be able to breathe on his own soon. We've been to the hospital like about three times daily, and instead of crying over my grandfather, i was overcome with grief for this small boy that lay just about three beds away.

He passed away yesterday after being admitted just two days ago. The pain and agony that his parents felt must have been excrutiating. They just sat by his bed and wept as the nurses covered him up. Two days, TWO DAYS was all it took to take away an innocent life. He was admitted with a high fever the day before, didn't even get a chance to say anything to his parents before he lapsed into a coma and never woke up thereafter.

I guess spending just a few hours standing outside the icu ward can make one cherish life even more. sigh.. he was only 3 years old!!!!!!!!

Anyway everyone's happy now that my grandfather is making progress so it's back to the cheery mood and that's good. The trip to the hospital this morning was the best. He managed to open his eyes and even nodded to some of the questions that we asked. :) :) :)

ooh time for lunch again. eating again. till then.

I hate the fact that i blush so easily.

It always gives people the wrong idea anyway. So here i am sitting on a chair that is about to break in half coz i've been eating like i was pregnant, and sobbing over what i deem as probably the most unlucky and pissing day of my life.

1) I go to school unwillingly with eyes that can hardly open. I want to be in KL not here. The news that i get here is so bloody vague i don't even have a clue about what exactly is going on there. All i can do is pray and everytime the phone rings or a message comes in my heart skips a beat coz i pray hard that it isn't what i wanna hear or read.

2) It's a moody start but i cheered up after a while. Got through econs lecture.. then comes some bloody irritating break which i wish never came along. coz my blinking friends start the sammy business again and i'm getting bloody irritated by it coz it's gone too far.

3) I couldn't eat my lunch in peace coz he joined us at the table. You know what? i can't even hold a proper conversation with him coz everything links back to him being my blinking husband. Anyway i don't give a hoot about it anymore. no more playing along.

4) my gp essay was somewhat something that resembled a primary one kid's work. what the hell.

5) It was raining heavily when i got to the boon lay mrt station. damn.

The main thing that got me all fired up was just the sammy thing. It's just not funny anymore so just stop it ok? not like my saying this would help in any way, but today was just so not the day to be carrying out this kinda joke coz i am so NOT in the mood for this when my grandfather is gasping for air in KL.

His condition is just so bad i don't know. I'm so confused and i don't know what to do coz it just came so suddenly. A few days ago when we received news that he was hospitalised there was no cause for worry yet. Now he's like in the so-called second stage of a coma and might go anytime. a mere three days and everything is wasting away in his body. We're all scared and worried and praying endlessly and there was a glimmer of hope when there was an improvement this afternoon but i'm just very afraid that that glimmer of hope will be blocked out just as fast as this whole thing struck.

So i'm sorry i snapped at mimi and anne, but i just can't get a grip of my emotions and you guys just aggravated it with all that sammy thing. I mean it's ok if you just made fun of me and him in front of me, but not in front of the both of us. I accept that it has become part of our tradition to like just tease each other but what happened today was just too extreme. Moreover now it's like we don't even talk normally anymore. Not that i really give a hoot about that but we're classmates.

ok i've come in and said what i've wanted to.

Oh yes and i'm upset that someone didn't tell me that that someone was going somewhere till i found out through some other sources. I shouldn't be, but it's just dissapointment on my part.

fucking arseholes. no-brainers. I don't even understand what kind of bloody mentality lurks within their bloody brains (if any). low-down scumbags. fuck them. You know what? they derive joy from scratching other people's cars. Other people's beloved cars. and why? coz they're fucking arseholes. That's not the worst. the scratch stretched across two doors. TWO FUCKING DOORS. It's such a horrid sight now. curse them, for life.

I really really really hate bloody idiots like this. I bet they acted in a group coz individuals would never have had the bloody guts. My dad wants to set up a neighbourhood watch to find the culprit.. geez.. i think he'll probably have to find another victim who feels as much angst as we do. Bloody hell. the cars friggin less than a year old!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just really hope that the bloody arseholes suffer a horrible fate. Irritating shitheads.

Anyway that happened yesterday as we were about to get into the car to go to the bukit timah hill. sigh. And, my father was surprisingly calm. *raises eyebrow* Actually we were more worried about the KL side as my grandfather was admitted into the icu due to breathing difficulties. Thank god he's alright now, but he'll have to stay in the hospital for a couple of days more. *prays hard*

Gotta go shower and meet sarah then. We're gonna catch charlie's angels. hahaha.... i still can't find stace! argh...

*yawn* Feels good to be back home again and just purely slacking away. The chalet was good fun, and so many things were revealed it'll probably take me a couple of days to digest.

The food was alright, and amidst all the silly things that surfaced like me and anne running hysterically at the croak of a toad, me jumping onto the bed when there was a sudden buzz in the corner, and the endless suan-ing of me and *ahem, i think it was indeed nicer than last year where the guys played mahjong and nothing else.

Sammy, joan and i stayed awake till the break of dawn, just crapping and crapping away. The only miserable thing was the fact that my hp died. cause of death? submergence into the friggin-dirty-and-murky-super-salty sea water. The battery corroded in ten seconds flat. *sobs* So i'm hp-less, and bounded by two kids whom they came up with, and all the people who were there now know the disgustingly embarrassing story of me and him. Yes including mr wee who gave my the sly grin. *stabs myself and GLARES at mimi*

Really wish the whole class could have been there at least for the bbq though. I was really dissapointed at some people.

My mum was supposed to be on tv collecting some trophy but shucks, it totally slipped my mind and i forgot to catch it. darn.

I think i'd better go catch some sleep. I'm citing trance-like behaviour already. sheesh.